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Nov. 11th, 2012 | 02:07 am

I'm still being asked and piqued about this to this very day over five years later. Five years! I can't think of many things within my life that lasted more than five years. A handful of friendships, a first love, and ranked just below these: a weird blip on the internet involving myself and a girl I knew and traveled with that enveloped itself into an LJ, one that refuses to go the way of every other LJ I've ever had in my life: chronicling a relentless revenge to hurt the girl's ego as tidy and simple as could be. A bit shameful but I refuse to give in.

Poor Emily, I'm not looking to be condescending by any means, but perhaps the bitter sensation of her in my mouth has melted into something I can draw a fond memory or two from. I was much different five years ago. She has to be different too. Maybe. I'm terrible with recognizing faces but my brain hasn't been able to make hers out for quite some time. The rest of it I mismatch for myself in my own head and tell myself there was still something nice about her.

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From: anonymous
Date: Nov. 13th, 2012 04:51 pm (UTC)
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What about her was nice? I mean, you must have been friends for a reason.

Oh abd BTW, for anyone who might be curious (since you're still being asked to this day about Emily), oh sunshine is no more. She's in NY and Mikio is back to being a session guitarist.

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From: raspberrysyrup
Date: Dec. 11th, 2012 10:11 pm (UTC)
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i couldn't for the life of me make any sense of how she could still remain in japan, at least legally, doing what she did. when you put together the fact that there are near-infinite aspiring musicians, singers, bands, or acts seeking attention, a niche, a record deal, or whatever, how could she, or her super-diluted music, keep her afloat? it isn't a loss on her side though, i'm halfway sure she will enjoy always having that phase of her life to point to and say "when i was young, i was a halfway-successful musician in japan". that's kinda cool. maybe she should go to college now, ground herself among people smarter and more emotionally developed than her, humble herself, and grow. maybe even grow out of the whole japanese thing enough to see it's a bit silly to feel competitive and protective over a culture and place that isn't your own.

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From: anonymous
Date: Nov. 21st, 2012 02:00 pm (UTC)
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Heheh, I still have your ego-crushing LJ in my RSS reader, Nick. Funny, bc even emiry couldn't be arsed to read it nowadays, if I'm allowed to exaggerate a bit.

so WAS she genuinely nice at some point or two? It's (or would be) refreshing to hear that a person like her has some kind of "warmth" in her. Obviously she didn't exactly treat you like shit before all that trip business, right?

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From: raspberrysyrup
Date: Dec. 11th, 2012 10:06 pm (UTC)
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i didn't have very many connections to other people for a long time, for a few reasons, and during my relationship with her there was always warmth to be found. even having someone to share obscure interests with will draw them a little closer, doesn't it? so i would never, especially for that time in my life when i was much more shutting out everyone and everything else, feel obligated to speak with or share myself with someone that didn't have anything to offer me. for a bit she was the only person i could talk to; i was tainted goods but i had an emotional companion who liked me anyway. that feels nice when you need it although that part hasn't really changed.

all that really changed was she got full of herself, fanned with flattery and over-enthusiastic complimenting from iffy places, made to feel she was worth more, better than others, more special, and i was a weighty unneeded appendage. i can understand it, just like i can understand purposely driving someone away to not have to feel obligated to someone you invited to travel with. i don't think she is a terrible person at heart, but i can't speak to her personality since then. i haven't heard very many nice things about her from people that have popped up to tell me their experiences with her, but you have to take that as it is considering they probably wouldn't seek me just to say she was oh-so-nice or oh-so-sweet. she isn't a monster, instead she's just extremely easy to dislike. it doesn't take away the warmth they did have or may still have, and most of what i lament is that something assembled and kept for years collapsed for really petty reasons. that's life though!

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From: anonymous
Date: Dec. 15th, 2012 06:36 am (UTC)
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Whatever did happen to Emily and Magibon? They disappeared.

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From: anonymous
Date: Jan. 23rd, 2013 06:35 pm (UTC)
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Emiru got booted out of Japan.

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From: anonymous
Date: Feb. 8th, 2013 02:19 pm (UTC)
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what ever happened to that one friend of hers, @kynapple? all trace of her seems to have disappeared from the interwebs.

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From: raspberrysyrup
Date: Feb. 17th, 2013 02:20 am (UTC)
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i used to have an e-mail correspondence with kyna for a little while, but she has likely been engulfed in her own life like everyone else succumbs to eventually. not everyone sticks around with the same handles, in the same places, forever and ever. i might but i'm stupidly nostalgic. by all impression i gathered from her, she is a fantastically sweet girl and it was just unfortunate she found herself sucked in by emily's meat hooks in that instance and had to return home to britain. she had her own actual, real issues to face and imo she's an admirable person. i liked her and i'd like to talk to her again to catch up sometime if i ever get a chance.

nothing much more to share. you have to remember this whole stupid ordeal came and went long, long ago.

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From: anonymous
Date: Mar. 4th, 2013 11:17 pm (UTC)
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On her Twitter she said she still has two more years on her permit. And she was tired of being a “novelty“. Hahaha.
Makes me really wonder what permits she had, after leaving language school. I am a permanent resident of Japan and well,
I would think it is hard to stay in Japan as a low grade musician, even if you can provide for yourself with アルバイト or money from someone. Don't know if the label sponsored her, they were no major labels.
She came with hopes and high expectations and left, while I will be staying til death. Sounds pretty fair to me :)

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From: anonymous
Date: Mar. 9th, 2013 12:53 am (UTC)
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I am also living in Japan right now, so hello comrade. I am looking for work while deciding whether to join the ranks living here permanently or to head back. I used to translate Emily's blogs and stuff on this journal.

I checked out her Twitter etc since you had said something... It's amazing how much her tone is different when she writes stuff in English compared to her super fake Japanese persona. I started wondering if the reason she had left is because her music career didn't work... but to be honest, it looks like it was fairly nonexistent. No reviews on Amazon, no real threads on 2ch or major updates on her only fanblog (which might be run by her or a friend, who knows?). I am puzzled that there is still no clue as to whether the unit has broken up or not... maybe it was just unimportant enough to not warrant mentioning? :/ Doesn't seem to have gotten any attention.

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From: anonymous
Date: Mar. 10th, 2013 01:40 pm (UTC)
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Good luck on your job search!

It's amazing how much her tone is different when she writes stuff in English compared to her super fake Japanese persona
Yes! English is not my mother tongue, but she sounds very unfriendly and arrogant in English, but when she writes Japanese she is "nice".

Honestly, I even wouldn't be surprised if she and her partner had a dispute...but I've come to think it's also possible that she left because of permit issues...as you know, the Japanese government has another immigration system since July last year. From what I hear from other people, it isn't that easy anymore to get a "longer" permit. The permit with the longest duration is the 5 years one now - I suspect it will be more difficult (&time consuming) for spouses to obtain the permanent residence status, as you need the 5 years permit for application - but what if you get the 3 years ones for a "while"?
That being said, Emily came to Japan in summer(July-August), didn't she? So what if Emily got the 6 months permit - because she doesn't go to school, she didn't seem to have a "real" work - and she thought "ah, damn it"?

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nick .

From: raspberrysyrup
Date: Apr. 12th, 2013 08:07 am (UTC)
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i'm far from any sort of expert opinion on the entertainment industry or industry culture in japan, but one factor that seemed especially highlighted in regard to emily's activities was the fact there have to be a million-seeming acts, at least most of them inevitably better; better talented, better skills, and having actually invested some or all of their lives bettering their musicianship or vocal refinement, all jockeying in an already-saturated market for a label signing, gigs and venues booked, and stardom. in all seriousness, as much as i'd like for emily to have some moderate success in her endeavors, if only because i could be happy for her for living her adolescent dream she used to fantasize about during our entropy-fated friendship, her music was bland, generic, uninspired, and unrefined. in other words, it kind of sucked. the gimmick of being a former youtube whatever can only get you so far, and even now i'm still puzzled how she managed to convince actual industry (if only indie) professionals to sign her and put her together with one of the many revolving door session musicians from tokyo jihen for what was a nothing act putting forward zero merit toward art, entertainment, or mainstream consumption.

their music act never particularly seemed legitimate because they never exactly caught on nor likely got much investment from the label. what she did seem to have were surprisingly decent connections to hook up gigs her act didn't deserve in the first place. then again, i can understand her disappointment it didn't pan out, but hey, she got a lot further than anyone else could, and it isn't like she put forth much effort to become professionally-trained in music. riding the coattails of 2007-era youtube fame and jumping as far she did the way she did was still impressive even if she was running on the thinning fumes of industry connections that probably sprouted from stickam, whom she didn't even hold up her end of their paid bargain with in the first place.

it's too bad but if she was smarter, she'd have benefited greatly from doing things right with patience and recognition of her assets than doing things that cost her credibility, cost her the whatever fanbase she routinely spit on or ripped off, and cost her the last shot she had while girls like becky cruel or whomever were claiming some niche. who knows though, maybe she's biding her time and doing things right for a triumphant return to the effort, but i doubt it. she's probably living with her dad or something.

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From: anonymous
Date: Apr. 21st, 2013 01:33 pm (UTC)
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I agree, she could have done things differently and probably better. The moment I saw her booby bouncing in her video I kind of knew this would be the beginning of the end.

Well, back in 2007 I had some interest in some of the vloggers (related to Japan or Japanese) on YT but I personally feel everything has cooled down. I don't watch any videos of such people anymore because I don't think it's worth my time to watch them. I also liked Ciaela/Micaela from Canada, but after she started to delete my questions if she's actually married I lost interest because she's obviously trying to hide it and I don't see why she should. She has been living in Japan for a few years. I guess it's all about creating this fantasy world on YT where living and staying in Japan seems so easy which is simply not true. That's why I even think Emily might have been married to a Japanese if her story of the 2 remaining years on her stay permit are true.
If you know Ciaela's channel and want to ask me why I think she's married:

She posted her 在留カード on Instagramm: http://instagram.com/p/O5xmyvAGdd/# (http://instagram.com/p/O5xmyvAGdd/#)
She has no problem showing her full name and the fact her address in Japan is "未定" = not determined( I wonder what that's about?!) but she doesn't show her residential status.
But you can see there's "就労制限なし" written on the card = no restrictions work-wise.
That's when I wondered: How can she have no restrictions like I do if all she does is posting videos or so it seems?
If you visit the site of the Japanese Ministry of Health, Labour and Welfare
http://www2.mhlw.go.jp/topics/seido/anteikyoku/gairou/980908gai01.htm (http://www2.mhlw.go.jp/topics/seido/anteikyoku/gairou/980908gai01.htm) you can see at (3) there are only 4 kinds of residential statuses which have no restrictions work-wise:
永住者、日本人の配偶者等、永住者の配偶者等、定住者
(Permanent residents, Spouses or children of Japanese, Spouses or children of Permanent residents, 定住者 are refugees or for example foreigners who were married to a Japanese person but the Japanese partner died and the foreigner has to take care of the half Japanese kids in Japan)

Ciaela is neither a refugee nor does she have a child (as far as we know...), so there's 永住者、日本人の配偶者等 and 永住者の配偶者等 left.
I am a foreign woman, married to a Japanese, I didn't change my family name AND I have obtained Permanent Residence.
Ciaela cannot be permanent resident because then she wouldn't have an expiration date for her status, which is written under 就労制限なし. I have stars printed on my residential card there because I can stay forever.
=> She's married. She probably thinks nobody ever would find out because she didn't change her name etc. but ooops.

Nobody can stay in Japan without restrictions work-wise just by posting videos on YT or recording songs. If you have a work permit, your work activity is restricted to your work permit. Earning any money without a correct permit is illegal.
The more I think of it...Emily had to be married to someone....
She could get a student visa while visiting the language school, but I personally don't see how her other activities could be approved by the immigration office....

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From: anonymous
Date: Mar. 10th, 2013 05:11 pm (UTC)
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http://www.exploretalent.com/emilyconnor4 (http://www.exploretalent.com/emilyconnor4)

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From: anonymous
Date: Mar. 10th, 2013 05:12 pm (UTC)
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http://www.exploretalent.com/emilyconnor4 (http://www.exploretalent.com/emilyconnor4)

Emily's exploretalent profile.

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From: anonymous
Date: May. 7th, 2013 07:47 am (UTC)
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I miss you my little melty horror...

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From: raspberrysyrup
Date: Jun. 1st, 2013 01:58 am (UTC)
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that certainly piqued my attention. who might you be?

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From: anonymous
Date: Jun. 5th, 2013 08:07 pm (UTC)
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I shall give the headphonechild a few guesses, if not then he can just be a zombiefuxxer for ever. ;-)

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From: anonymous
Date: May. 17th, 2013 03:03 pm (UTC)
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cache of her linkedin profile:

http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:U1t8QA8Y0osJ:www.linkedin.com/pub/emily-connor/64/49b/936+&cd=1&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=ca (http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:U1t8QA8Y0osJ:www.linkedin.com/pub/emily-connor/64/49b/936+&cd=1&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=ca)

kinda sad.

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From: anonymous
Date: May. 17th, 2013 03:04 pm (UTC)
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Hey nick, I tried to make a post but because it had a url in it it was marked as spam.. can you add it to the comment feed here, pretty please?

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From: raspberrysyrup
Date: Jun. 1st, 2013 01:59 am (UTC)
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if it's a comment post on this particular entry, i don't see it unfortunately. perhaps LJ automatically deleted it?

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From: anonymous
Date: Jun. 7th, 2013 06:25 pm (UTC)
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I can't find the link now, but no matter!

Emily update (for those who may still care after so long):

Living in Brooklyn NY, working for Utility Canvas, and Jenny Chase Inc.
Dating some guy named Gregory Mueller, freelance graphic artist etc.

Personal instagram username: mojopinnn
Personal twitter username: ohconnors
She also has a soundcloud (linked from her "public" twitter) account where she shows off her extensive vocal training (since the age of 6).

More: http://guestofaguest.com/directory/emily-connor/154077 (pictured with BF Gregory Mueller)

...looks like she's laying low on the internet and attempting to work her way up in the fashion world. Not sure if this is commendable or not, since she's to this day never apologized or admitted to fraud regarding the donation debacle. Or even that racist scam her and ChrisGen (StreetEnglishTV) ran for her birthday live so, so long ago.

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From: anonymous
Date: Jun. 7th, 2013 06:26 pm (UTC)
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I can't find the link now, but no matter!

Emily update (for those who may still care after so long):

Living in Brooklyn NY, working for Utility Canvas, and Jenny Chase Inc.
Dating some guy named Gregory Mueller, freelance graphic artist etc.

Personal instagram username: mojopinnn
Personal twitter username: ohconnors
She also has a soundcloud (linked from her "public" twitter) account where she shows off her extensive vocal training (since the age of 6).

More: guestofaguest_dot_com/directory/emily-connor/154077 (pictured with BF Gregory Mueller)

...looks like she's laying low on the internet and attempting to work her way up in the fashion world. Not sure if this is commendable or not, since she's to this day never apologized or admitted to fraud regarding the donation debacle. Or even that racist scam her and ChrisGen (StreetEnglishTV) ran for her birthday live so, so long ago.

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From: anonymous
Date: Nov. 11th, 2013 12:18 am (UTC)
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Interesting. I forgot about this place for forever up until now and figured it would be a long-shot to peek in. Thank you for this post though!

I'm not sure how I feel about the "new" Emily. She does seem like she has grown up, though she still never apologized for her previous antics and scammy behavior. I took a peek through her instagram and she seems to be incredibly accident prone or something. So far she's had a bad laceration to her inner elbow (left a pretty nasty scar), a broken toe, and what appears to be surgery on her throat. That's a lot in such a short amount of time. Also, she looks much thinner now... perhaps she has some underlying health issues?

I find it really interesting she dropped the whole Japanese thing completely now too...

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From: anonymous
Date: Jun. 4th, 2013 07:24 pm (UTC)
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I found this blog a while ago, but didn't bother reading most of the content. i got around to reading a lot of it after i browsed through the videos made by that gimmeaflake asshole on youtube. If there's any truth to the creepy pedophilia allegations against him, man...i feel really bad for his wife and kid.

I don't know about your experiences, but what's with all the videos of foreigners and their life stories in Japan? aren't the residents there even slightly annoyed that there are douchebags running around pointing and taking footage of people without their permission? I see asian tourists here in Canada snap photos, but never taking video. if i saw an asian kid pointing at a statue of a beaver then later post a youtube video called 'wtf canada' to encourage stereotypes about buck-toothed, maple syrup-chugging lumberjacks with pet beavers, i'd be fucking annoyed.

A friend of mine showed me the gainjin smash website and I couldn't help but see the money begging parallel between what transpired in your story and his life. i guess providing for his wife makes me a little more sympathetic towards him, but begging for donations online from people just reminds me of all the online charity scamming that goes on when natural disasters occur, and the whole situation just disgusts me.

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nick .

From: raspberrysyrup
Date: Nov. 24th, 2013 03:35 am (UTC)
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I can't speak for anyone beyond myself, but I speculate they want the easy money from YT because some of them do make surprising income, and there is a demand for white foreigners in Japan discussing life over there.

I have one friend who uploaded and filmed the unforgivable videos if you're familiar with those, really nice guy and quite talented in music and other things, and next time he comes back to Oakland where I reside and visits my apartment, I'll ask about how much they do make and let you know. Carolyn has told me before, she'd likely be a better authority with the niche of foreigners in Japan, but I forget the exact figures. They are decent and if you're on the high tiers of views, one can live off just uploading videos fairly comfortably. A bit maddening sometimes but what can you do...

Thanks for posting and showing interest here, I'm still puzzled why I've kept this LJ here, but to be fair I reached out to Emily via FB to shut it down and publicize her good will if she wanted to respond...

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